so many emotions are tearing thru my heart right now. it just hit me that my friend is leaving on monday for the air force. he n i have GROWN up together. starting from the ages from a year n a half, n six months (i was a year n a half, he was the 6 month old), til now. he is the only person that i have actually grown up with like that. i mean theres my little sister but thats way different. this kid has come such a long way. so right now i am sad, i am happy, n i am proud. its funny too because when we were little we got along great, then when we got to be around tenish we didnt get along at all! we were like oil n water. i wanted nothing to do with him, n he hated me the same. we just could never agree, EVER. then all of a sudden we started getting along again once high school hit, n now... he is leaving. n it sucks, but at the same time it doesnt. i mean he went from being a drug effected baby to being taken in by his grandparents to graduating high school at the top of his class wit honors, n he is going into the air force. what more can you ask for??? this kid is amazing. he went from being a spoiled little bitchy kid who was borderline psycho, to this kid that is super sweet, funny, n THE MOST compassionate person that i have ever met. this kid is goin to be SORELY missed. his laugh makes others laugh because he sounds like a retard when he laughs, but hey, not everyone is perfect hahahaha!!!!! i am never goin to be able to listen to "Broken" by Seether ever again. it reminds me of this kid too much!! its hard, because he is the one person that i feel like i have left!!!! to me it so weird that i feel that way, i mean you would have to kno how HORRIBLY we got along when we were kids. we would fight verbally, we would fight physically, we used to just separate ourselves from eachother because we couldnt stand just standing outside near eachother. even that would turn into an argument, or a fight, or something. it was just impossible for the two of us to blend, n now he is all i have left??? huh? when did that happen? i am still tryna figure that one out!!!!! he has been there for me thru so much shit. he has been there thru heart break, thru laughter, n thru fear. standing by myside, n at times holding me up cuz i couldnt do it on my own. he was there when i didnt want him there, n he waited for me to come to him. no words of distruction, no words of critism, just silence. god, this kid is the best. he's mah best friend.

~*~Peace~*~